You make me smile(:

Hehe. ^-^ I love you

Been listening to a lot of Beach House lately. I think I might follow in my aunt’s footsteps. Maybe I should be a gypsy like my mom’s side of the family is but I don’t want people mistaking me for a hippie. I’m like it but not exactly what i would call myself.

Does he love me or is he just saying that to make me feel better. Please just give me a sign to show me that it’s not fake. I need hope that I can feel loved by him. I need it so bad.

I’m leaving this place. I have work. I work 2 jobs and getting promoted soon. I just auditioned for a vocal part in a band and I have to think about what I’m going to do in life. Where is everything going. I barely have time anymore. I use my free days to hang out in my room all day or go play D&D. I’m done with it all. Goodbye.

Randy and I have been taking a break for about a week now even though no one knew but my sister cause I was talking to her about it. Anyways, I declare the break to be over and I think I’ve gotten a little bit happier now. I think I start trusting my boyfriend again without stressing over it. I broke up with my therapist and as soon as I did that I started feeling a little bit better. I love my Randy Bear and nothing can ever change that. I love you baby, so much!!

The cuts on my wrists are still noticeable. When I’m working the front counter at work people always ask me about it. It hurts when they ask. I just want to forget that they’re even their. I stopped. I hope they fade away faster.